Clarity Amid Collapse

40 Days of an Intentional and Specific Covenant with Consciousness
Documented by Brooke Ranvek

January 21st, 2025
Emotions, Moods, Desires

I am patiently impatient. My motivation feels close to zero. I know motivation isn’t reliable—it’s an opportunity to observe and wait out the storm. What’s so crazy is that, just like the weather, we can’t control or predict our storms.

I know I’m close to uncovering a story I’m telling myself about life that has me stuck in this blank state. Do I believe in God and Light? Yes. Am I human, navigating relationships with other humans in a world that’s crumbling—a world I see as necessary, divine, and something we all signed up for? Absolutely. Do I feel bogged down by the whirlwind of collective consciousness right now? Do I feel the pain of the collective? Without a doubt.

The more you ascend, the harder it can feel. It’s not that life gets easier—it almost feels tougher because it becomes so rare to find consciously sound people. Right now, I’m studying my IQ sphere in the Venus Sequence, which focuses on our reactions to emotions and desires. This part of us is encoded between the ages of 14 and 21, making this a challenging yet revealing phase. You begin to see others’ triggers while facing your own.

This sphere also deals with provocation and hidden agendas. As I write this, feelings of shame, blame, guilt, enoughness, deserving, and the lie of sin are surfacing. One of my assignments is to create a tree with roots representing the things that brought me joy and inspired dreams and aspirations during that age. Within the tree, I’ll also document the shadows that have held me back.

My Gene Key for this sphere is #11: Shadow—Obscurity, Gift—Idealism, and Siddhi—Light. This key feels so present in my life right now. One lesson that stands out is how I can become obscured by things I believe will help me find the Light. When we learn these truths about ourselves, we don’t ignore our shadows or label them as bad—we bring our gifts to them.

I’ve been traveling this path of spiritual maturity for a while, recognizing that while I can be drawn to the “next big thing” promising to help humanity, I also know when I’m seeking light outside of myself. For example, this 40-day covenant with consciousness—shouldn’t it bring me closer to God? And if I’m closer to God, shouldn’t I feel like I’ve found the Light? The answer is no.

The gift of discernment is essential because the only way out is through. I see the Light in everything, even in darkness, and sometimes I’m drawn to the dark because of this. But it’s not that I find the Light in the darkness—it’s that the truth is revealed: I am the Light. I am also the darkness.

This is where my human tendencies come in. Here is where I can pinpoint the story that keeps pulling me from excitement and motivation to the “fuck it all” attitude. Why does any of this matter, anyway? People can be disappointing. I struggle to trust. I can read between the lines, sense emotions, and people know it—which often pushes them away. I feel impatient for others to wake up, even the “spiritual” ones who are so deep in their spiritual egos that it’s exhausting to be around them.

I know this is a story I’m telling—a belief I’ve built. The 11th Gene Key has taught me that believing is where I get in trouble because I must know, not just believe. Maybe that’s why my purpose feels unattainable. My purpose is to share my heart, be a beacon of Light, and help others see their gifts.

As a high-achieving introvert, I feel like I need to do—to make drastic moves that create visible and tangible impact. I know my programs work. They’re not about perfection or eliminating challenges but about being your best emotionally, physically, and mentally.

Yet, I feel like I’m spinning in circles, holding a solution that could help so many, while doubting others’ willingness to lay a foundation for their own health. I sense people haven’t reached their breaking point yet—they’re waiting to be saved by time, money, or the demands of their responsibilities.

I know this is a story. I can’t wait for my beliefs to change to take action. I have a powerful solution. My message matters. I can’t tie my emotions or self-worth to needing to believe I’m making a difference. I must stand in my power and know my message matters. I’m leaving a legacy through the choices I make to move past my old belief systems and continue doing what works.

The recurring theme is to remember. I need to stop overthinking and start doing. Acting. Behaving as the person I know I am, not just thinking about it. I am here to share my story, to create, and to heal—both myself and my samskaras. Because when one of us heals, we all heal.

Bye for now,
Oxox,
Brooke

Reflective Questions for Your Journey

As you reflect on your own path, consider these questions to help you explore what it will take to embrace a proven program like the Beauty Code Way and make it your guiding light:

1. What will it take for you to trust a proven pathway that’s designed to guide you through life’s storms, especially as the world continues to shift?
2. What areas of your life do you feel you don’t know enough about yet—whether it’s emotional resilience, self-love, or reconnecting with your purpose—and how would having guidance help?
3. What will it take for you to choose a pathway that provides structure, tools, and support instead of trying to navigate this on your own?
4. What needs to shift in your mind or heart to believe that this is possible for you—not someday, but right now?
5. How can you begin to see that the challenges of this world, especially during these uncertain times, are the perfect conditions for your personal transformation?
6. What stories, beliefs, or barriers are standing in the way of you feeling deserving of making yourself the most important person in your life?
   • Is it time?
   • Money?
   • Readiness?
   • Or is it believing you deserve to feel like a priority?
7. How will you know it’s time to reach out and seek guidance, especially in a world that doesn’t teach us to remember who we are?
8. If the storms of life are only going to intensify, what tools or practices do you want in place to weather them with grace and resilience?
9. How would it feel to have a system—like the Beauty Code Way—that allows you to navigate these storms without the pressure of being “perfect,” but with the power of being prepared?
10. What will it take to fully believe that the Beauty Code Way is possible for you, in this moment, in this world, and specifically tailored to meet you where you are?

This is not about striving for perfection. It’s about having a system, a guide, and the right tools to face the inevitable challenges of life. As my journal reflects, the storms will come—they may even grow stronger as we approach what feels like the “final collapse” over the next few years. But with the right support and a commitment to remembering who you are, these storms can become opportunities for growth and transformation, not reasons to retreat or give up.

Take some time to sit with these questions. Let them spark curiosity and reflection. Your answers may reveal exactly what you need to take that next step toward aligning with your purpose and becoming the person you know you’re meant to be.

If this resonates, I invite you to explore what’s possible with the Beauty Code Way and see how it can become the foundation for your self-love and soulful transformation.